Physicists state that energy never dies nor is created yet only transforms. If that is fact then we are all part of the universal big bang from billions of years ago. We are aspects and elements and energy exploding and transferring, expanding and contracting from birth until death, when the energy transfers again.
Expanding is what makes a day clear and fulfilling. Contracting is what makes a day sad, murky and frustrating. It is the difference between being on the crest of an energy wave where we can see all possibility or at the bottom of the wave where we can only see walls of uncertainty and cannot figure how to get back out…..
The big bang within is the birth of thought and ideas pouring forth. It is the clarifying of our identities and intentions. Darkness and doubts are the black holes within us that attempt to draw all of our energies, weakening us.
There is a solar system that forms within each of us making us unique and individual. There are billions of solar systems with suns at the center. We all have a sun. It is the soul that all information and possibility rotate around and through, day after day, year after year. The sun within is that shining light upon our lives and days.
It is the big bang within. Some theologians, “spiritual” people, and philosophers, say we are spiritual beings in physical bodies. That makes sense to me. If not, my guess is we would simply be glazed over worker ants not knowing but what we see with our eyes.
Yet we burst and seek through the noise and distractions of materials and illusions, of pain and suffering, of shitty jobs, and governmental incompetence. We yearn for a better life no matter what is happening around us. However, on many days the black hole wins and no light escapes or penetrates it and we sink into depression.
If we need to get to California, well, getting stuck in Nebraska is not the answer. And so it is true with jobs, relationships, and stubbed toes. There are many pitfalls, sharks and assholes, and these distractions are the black holes in our lives. And they can suck up all of the energy in our worlds.
We shine for however long until we are extinguished in this life and the energy moves into other form. The body may die, but energy transforms and carries with it information that we carried forth through this life and so on. We are not born mere clean slates only to be crafted by environment alone.
There is an eternity wave that we ride. It does not start or end with us. Yet it bursts forth through us. Some may call it God or Universe and some may not refer to it at all. Yet it exists in our wisdom and our ignorance.
I must write. My friend must paint. My other friend must teach martial arts. Another friend teaches math. Another one is a psychologist.
A cheetah must run. Yet a cheetah never drives himself crazy trying to live the life of a squirrel. A cheetah is a cheetah because that is what he was born to be.
I write because that is what I must do. It is part of my survival, my instincts, and what defines me. I must embrace that path and light. I must share and sing the song that hums in my soul. For that song has always hummed in my soul since I first became aware of anything. The song I sing to you now is probably off key, but I must it sing nevertheless. What do you need to sing or do?
That light within is the same light that makes a star twinkle or creates that sparkle in your loved ones eyes.
It is that divine, universal spark that lights up the world and helps us see.